Have you ever had that special feeling, that gives you butterflies everytime you see a certain person? Well I have. There's this one boy, hes really cute and I love his style, to me hes like perfection, and every time I see him I just get this excited choked up feeling. I thought we were getting to know each other in the 'more then friends' way and everything, until I went on holiday and since then we havn't talked at all. In some ways its okay becasue I leave in 3 months so nothing is going to ever come of it, but I still just don't know what to do about it. It seems that people are always leaving around me, and if its not them its me. My two best exchange student friends have both left, and my best friend has just gone to Belgium. All my friends I make in Denmrk are almost like temporary (as horrible as that sounds), I feel its almost crazy to try and get close to people here, I mean in the end i'm probably never going to see them again. Why does this always end up happening to me? Its like everytime I get close to someone, it somehow gets ruined by the fact that one of us has to leave... Then to make matters worse as soon as I get back to New Zealand all my old friends that I finally am reunited and were thinking everything is great and that nothing will bring us down, except then a little thing called university happens. Then I guess the whole process starts again, making friends finding people to love and then you will get a job half way accross the world. Hmmm maybe i'm just going to end up lonely and own lots of cats... : )
I hope this starts getting easier, my hearts not made of stone...
xxH
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